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Ephesians 5:18
"Also, do not be getting drunk with wine, in which there is debauchery, but keep getting filled with spirit,"
1 Corinthians 5:11-13
"But now I am writing you to quit mixing in company with anyone called a brother that is a fornicator or a greedy person or an idolator or a reviler or a drunkard or an extortioner, not even eating with such a man. For what do I have to do with judging those outside? Do you not judge those inside, while God judges those outside? "Remove the wicked man from among yourselves."
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For myself and for God.
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[25 Feb 2005|06:37am] |
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It's awesome how one thing can change your whole outlook on a situation. For the first time in a long while I feel that things might be changing for the better. I finally feel that I have more control over my life, even though I always had that control. All it took was a little encouragement and a quick prayer.
My plans for today...turn it all around.
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[22 Feb 2005|05:54am] |
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"If these walls had words I'd fear the things they'd say when I'm not around, Crashing image, painting me failure, Because I've sold myself a slave, a slave to a cause that holds no end. And still I am nothing short of being broken-hearted, Thieving wings from innocence departed, Locking eyes with hopes I just can't kill, Staring at shoes that I may never fill. My wish, I wish, I'm wishing for the day when I can break these chains and take to the sky, But now, it seems my humanity is too much for me, I'm watching freedom pass me by. We're told that life is learning, but all I'm learning is that life is full of holes. We're told the past is burning, tides are turning, there is no place we cannot go... Then why am I stuck here with one foot in heaven, a foot in hell, and a heart that's in between? Stomach disgust, mourn inspiration lost, It's all I have to rise up and stir the war inside of me, a fight that holds no end, But I'm not dead, No I'm not dead."
That pretty much sums up every thought racing through my mind right now, word for word.
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[17 Jan 2005|09:13am] |
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I need a HUGE change, something unbelievably positive in my life. I hope that this is going to be somthing that I can find quickly, but I'm totally willing to sacrifice however much time is needed.
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[13 Jan 2005|10:22am] |
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To anyone that I've managed to piss off in the last month and a half, I'm sorry. I think that working 3rd shift has greatly affected my mood. I'm not happy at all with work and it shows because I take it out on everyone else. I've been very short with people and prone to freaking out over the smallest things and I'm sorry. This apology is directed especially to Rachel, Alex, Derrick, and Zack. I love you guys too much to act this way. Please forgive me, I love you all!
*Sorry for ruining your birthday Zack*
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[25 Dec 2004|03:51am] |
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I guess that it's time for a much needed update. A ton of things have happened recently. First and foremost, I quit my job with LG&E. I decided that it was time for a change. I didn't like the pay cut that we took, doing the same job as before but making a significant amount less for that very same job is very demoralizing. My supervisors had also changed, they didnt seem to care about us the way that they used to, throwing tons of overtime at us, whether we wanted it or not, and not paying us what we thought was a "fair" amount of money for it.
A few days after quitting I got a job at Sam's Club, working 3rd shift. If you've never worked 3rd shift before, NEVER do it! I go in at 10 at night and I don't get off till 6 in the morning. Because of the schedule, they make me work every weekend, I dont have time to see any of my friends. If it wasn't for Rachel working there too, I would prolly never see her either. I get to see her for about 3 hours when she works the same day as me. When I get home, I'm so exhausted that I sleep all day long, until I have to get ready to go to work and do it all over again.
The only thing that I'm looking forward to is going to New York with Joe and Johanna for the Path of Resistance reunion. Money is going to be a little tight, but I'm really excited to see Bane, Most Precious Blood, Champion, Modern Life Is War, Love Is Red, Ensign and Path. After we get back next weekend, if everything works out, I'll hopefully be quitting Sam's and searching for another job, hopefully a 1st shift job.
I'm spending Christmas with Rachel and her mother so that means that we're here in West Virginia. All that I've been doing is watching movies and dicking around online when everyone else is asleep. They're a few more presents that Rach and me have to give when we get back into town. Money's been tight so they're not much, but it's the thought that counts, right?
I hope that everyone has a wonderful Christmas!
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[28 Oct 2004|01:24pm] |
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I havent updated in over a month. It doesnt seem that long though. I guess with work and friends I just dont spend that much time in front of the computer. The only reason that I'm updating today is that I've been off from work the past couple of days sick. I started feeling bad Tuesday at work. My body just began feeling really sore and I was having trouble breathing through my nose. I came home and fell asleep around 4 in the afternoon. Rachel went out and bought a thermometer and I ended up having a fever, 101.7. I pretty much slept nearly 24 hours straight. I woke up feeling a little bit better, was able to eat a little something and watch some t.v. The entire nite I drank orange juice and 7-up mixed together and green tea. I think that my little miracle cure worked because I feel alot better. I'm prolly going to go to work friday and see about taking vacation days for the 2 days I was off. Thank you sooooo much Rachel for taking care of me.
I think the plans for this weekend is seeing Saw with everyone, hopefully getting my laundry taken care of and then football on Sunday.
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True Till Death
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| Hear Ye, Hear Ye |
[07 Sep 2004|06:34pm] |
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Come support America in her time of need!
September 11th, 2004
HORSE the band
IN THE FACE OF WAR
A SUBURBAN BLOOD DRIVE
CANOPIC
STABBED TO DEATH
The Clarksville Community Center
2311 Giltner Lane
Clarksville, IN 47129
6 Dollars / Doors Open at 5:30
Come to this show and not only show your support for the greatest country ever, but also show some for Alex and Chris!
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[16 Aug 2004|09:07pm] |
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I guess it's time for an update, being that it's been more than a month since my last one. Alot of things have happened since then.
First and foremost, Rachel and I have moved out together into an apartment that was in her same complex as before. It's super nice, 2 bed rooms, nice size living room, but the best part of it are the neighbors. Joe and Johanna live in the same building as us, Mike G. and his girlfriend live in the next building over and then Emily and Jamie live in the one after that. It's nice having neighbors that I know will watch out for us.
Work has been ok, but barely. It sucks that my pay checks are alot smaller, but they manage to "barely" pay my bills. I guess that's the most important part.
I told some out of town kids that I would start keeping up with my journal, that way they would know what was going on. So I guess that I'll have to get back in the habit of updating on a some what regular basis.
If anyone is interested, it's Preston's last week here in Louisville. He leaves for school next week, so if anyone wants to hangout or has any ideas, let me know. You know you love Preston!
Have fun in WV, rocking out to Stretch, Rachel, I love you!
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| *This Just In* |
[03 Jul 2004|02:26pm] |
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It's official, "The Great Job Search of July" is over. Due to the massive amounts of bills that I have, I was forced to take a job with a company called Accuread, doing the same job that I've been doing for 4 years. This is the company that is responsible for me being laid off in the 1st place. I went in to the office yesterday afternoon and talked to my supervisor. He seemed more than happy to re-hire me. All I have to do is fill out a few pieces of paper work over the weekend and Tuesday go and retake my drug test. Ken, my supervisor, wanted to try to get me back to my old routes and soon as Wednesday, but because of the drug test it might be next week till I can get back to work.
I feel kinda shitty going back to the same job and making a significantly lesser amount of money. But the way I look at it, I'm just going to be doing this until I get all my bills paid off. I will still be searching for something better all the time. I dont want to get stuck in this job another 4 years and be in the exact same position as I am now. Thats why I am going to look into going to school at UofL, maybe some kind of a history major. I hope that everything will work out so I can do this.
For some odd reason I feel really productive. There's so much that I want to do with my life and I'm kinda starting to feel like I may actually be able to fulfill some of them.
I love all my friends and especially Rachel!
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| "Great Job Search of July" |
[01 Jul 2004|12:00pm] |
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Today starts the "Great Job Search of July".
I will not stop until I have a full-time job. If anyone knows of any places that are hiring full-time help, please let me know.
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[19 Jun 2004|03:12am] |
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Tonite was what I needed. Thank you so much to all my friends, and the 2 WHs, With Honor and Waffle House!
The show tonite went really good. All the bands played awesome and we pretty much went drama free the entire night. Until Summer's End sounds tighter and tighter. I thought that the Foo Fighters cover was fun. Reaction never ceases to amaze me. How an out of town band can come to Louisville and actually have kids pumped and moving around is beyond me. The only thing is, is that whenever they come to Louisville to play it reminds me of how I miss those kids. I need to get to Evansville more this summer. The Risk Taken was surprising. I had never heard them before tonite and I was very impressed. That band has some awesome guys in it. Tonite was the 1st time that I've seen Still Crossed. I've listened to the cd before, but it seems that that never does a band justice. SC was awesome to watch play. With Honor again always hits just the right spot in my heart. I seriously love all those guys. They played amazing. It was great seeing kids having fun like that during their set. I think that my little brother really dug them too. This was only his 3rd show but he loves listening to all my cds. I just wish that I could bring him to more shows.
After the show Chubbs gave me a ride to Qdobba. Had dinnner with all the "cool kids", Dustin, Joe, Johanna, Josh, Emily, Aaron, and Chubbs. All the Reaction kids and Kyle were there too. As was Andrea, Wendy, Natalie, and 2 awesome guys that I met for the 1st time tonite, Chase and Chad,(I believe...). After dinner a few of us headed down to the Skatepark to meet up with Rachel and all the With Honor and The Risk Taken boys. Being at the skatepark made me want to start riding again. I always felt good just being on my bike. I miss that feeling.
What's the best way to end an amazing night? That's right! Late night dinner at Waffle House! If anyone knows me, than you should know that I love Waffle House. With Honor, a few guys from The Risk Taken, and Brooke were staying at Andrea's parents house so we headed out to Hillview to eat dinner. Fun times! Got to talk to everyone and hangout before we had to head back to Rach's. With Honor are the most sincere and genuine band in hardcore right now in my opinion. I always have the most incredible times when I see them play. I only wish that I could be half as passionate about things as those guys.
This night has really cheered me up. Being with all my friends and seeing one of my most favorite bands has gotten me out of the rut I was in. Hopefully I can stay out of it.
I hope that all my friends in Reaction got home ok tonite and I hope that all the guys in The Risk Taken, Still Crossed, and With Honor have a safe tour.
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[14 Jun 2004|03:39pm] |
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So here's the deal:
I tried to call Dylan up today because I have some really bad news. The show for tomorrow night, June 15th, with Most Precious Blood is probably not going down. MBP is also booked in St. Albans, WV. My good friend Dana has them booked tomorrow night as well, with Holden Caufield, It All Ends Now, A Toast To The Winners, and Drain This Blood. I called Dana up and he said that it is all totally comfirmed. I told him about the situation and he said that he would call Justin and Matt Pike about it so hopefully things will be cleared up.
But it looks as if Most Precious Blood is going to be playing in West Virginia tomorrow night. If things go as planned, I may be attempting to drive up there for the show. If anyone is interested in going the show is at 7. Which means that we'd probably would be leaving at around 3 or so. If I can make it and some people wanna go, all I'd ask for is to split the cost of gas down the middle. If you've never been to WV for a show, this would be a good one to go to down there. Kids there seriously go off for MPB. Either hit me up on here or give me a call.
Give me a call Dylan if you read this and didn't get my message. I'll let you know what's going on down there.
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[12 Jun 2004|04:17pm] |
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I got my car back yesterday. Rachel and me went to the garage to pick it up and they got me a pretty nice new stereo. Alot nicer than my old one and sounds a heck of alot better too. They got a copy of Mario and Luigi Superstar Saga for me because I had Derrick's copy in my glove compartment. They also got me a brand new GameBoy Advance SP, the new ones that look like old Nintendo controllers. I was pretty stoked about all that until I got home and noticed that the window they replaced didn't have the right color of tint. It's not that big of deal but it looks kinda trashy. They also missed quite a few spots of the motherfucker's blood where he cut himself breaking in and bleed everywhere. I'm really grossed out about that! It's disgusting! So I guess that I'll wake up early Sunday morning and clean the hell out of it!
On a better note, after all that and me losing my temper and kicking a dent into the side of my car, Rach and me met up with Aaron at Qdobba's. Saw Steve and Zack in the parking lot, talked with them for a while. After dinner we met up with everyone at Osaka's for another dinner. I didn't eat but I did have the most amazing thing of Green Tea ice cream.
After dinner we headed back to Derricks and hung out with him, Chubbs, Alex, John, Lee, Adie and Jamie. I ended up having to drive Rachel all the way back to my house so she could pick up here car and I grabbed Lil' Zack so we could go to the movies.
Rachel, Aaron, Zack, Katie, Doug and me went to see Saved! I thought that it was awesome! Tons of funny shit from Mandy Moore and Maculey Caulkin. Saw the preview for Michael Moore's new movie, Faranheit 9/11. It looks rather interesting. After the movie we all hung around in front of Rach's car and talked before we headed home.
So hear I am, I woke up about half an hour ago. And I realy have to start getting ready for Ryan and Emily's wedding reception.
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[10 Jun 2004|06:06pm] |
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If anyone who reads this knows of any type of job openings that are for full-time, PLEASE let me know.
I need a new job! I'm going to try to make it to the unemployment office tomorrow morning. I need some type of income coming in while I search for a job so that I can pay my bills. And boy do I have a lot of them!
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[07 Jun 2004|10:06am] |
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It's been a long time since I updated. I've been extremely busy and out of town for the majority of the month of May and the 1st part of June. The whole "job" things went from bad to worse. All of last week I was working in Champaign, IL. The plan was that since I was gettin laid off here in Louisville the company that I work for had a position available for me in IL. It sounded like a pretty good set up, work out of my home, recieve nearly $10,000 more a year. I drove up there Monday nite and started working the next morning. After a couple of days Rachel quit her job and drove up to IL to look for apartments. We came pretty close to getting this super nice, huge apartment before I realized that IL was not the situation that I wanted to be in. I'd rather be poor and happy with my family and friends here in Louisville, than have plenty of money but be unhappy in a place that I never wanted to be in. So Rachel and me Aren't moving to IL. And that means that both of us are looking for jobs.
I especially need a job quick because I am stuck with a broken transmission on my car. I'm out quite a large amount of money, around $2,000. Not only that but this morning the place that my car is being fixed at called me this morning to inform me that over the weekend that they forgot to put the car in the garage and somebody decided to take a shovel and bust threw my window and steal my stereo. So I had to run down there and the person said that they were going to pay for a new window, tint on the window, a new stereo, and they were going to clean the blood on the seat that the mother fucker left and totally clean the entire car out for me.
This month keeps getting worse and worse. I'm becoming afraid to leave the house. If it wasnt for Rachel, my family and my great friends than I prolly would have had a nervous break down.
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[25 May 2004|09:39pm] |
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I'd really like to make a rather lenghty post as to my present situation, but I find it better to wait until I have the facts straight.
But I can say this...
I am in the most stressful, confused state that I have ever been in. I pray every waking minute that things will work out for the best. I'll I can do know is wait...........
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[21 May 2004|09:07am] |
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHEL!!!!!
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[03 May 2004|02:34pm] |
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I don't complain half as much as I should.
Fuck getting laid off.
And fuck Zao, most boring set I've ever seen.
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[19 Apr 2004|09:19pm] |
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I was planning on making a rather lengthy update on how awesome my weekend was. But after work today I found out that a friend of mine who I work with was killed Saturday nite in a motorcycle accident. He was only 21. I've felt like shit ever since I heard the news.
Sorry to everyone at Mark's Monday. I wasn't feeling myself tonite and I apologize if I offended anyone by taking off like that. It was nothing personal at all. Just a really, really shity day.
Thank you Rachel for making me feel better. I love you. <3
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